CBTL

Today, I found myself in Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf here in Eastwood. I like how it's not as crowded as Starbucks or Seattle's. And, yes, I am addicted to their English Breakfast Tea Latte.

And because it's quiet...I got to do this:

Tube top from Folded and Hung, Tank top from Surplus Shop, Cuff made by my cousin

Yes. It's okay to be alone sometimes.:)

GIFTS!:)

I love gifts!:) Whether I'd be the one giving it or I'd be the one receiving it. Few months back, I posted this super cool outfit I found from some site (sorry, I forgot the site. huhu!)

and today....my friend, Smile Indias, gave me this...

I love it.:)

Thanks Smile for making my day!:)

More to Life

I have the tendency to be very, very superficial. Today I went to the gym because I was inspired by my new gym clothes.  I went to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf with friends because I "needed" my coffee. I drank flavored beer because it's new and it's cool.

Nothing wrong with enjoying these things in life.:)

But when you come home and read online that a friend's mom passed away and how he's struggling right now, everything just goes down the drain. You suddenly think "What the hell am I doing with my life?" "Am I worthy of this life?"

I bet many others are better than what I am right now. They have a good relationship with God, they are close with their families, they never lie to their friends and the list goes on and on. Yet, I seldom change to become better thinking that people should accept who I really am.

I'm scared to die. I'm not ready for it. If God takes away my life today, I would...I don't know....I'm not ready for it. I know I am not the best version of myself...yet. I do not have a steady career, I hate staying at home and I haven't reached all my dreams yet.

I know, though, why I can't. It's because I'm afraid to fail. I am afraid of taking risks. I guess, with this life change that I want in my life, taking risks should be part of it. I should take risks more often. I know it's hard, but I don't want to end up being afraid to die.

Death is a beautiful thing. May it be physical or metaphorical. We'll never know what's in store for all of us after "death". But I guess death is the only way one can be reborn. Death is a gift. And I must learn how to face every "death" with the best version of myself.

I AM AFRAID TO BLOG!

I have always been afraid of the "online" world. That's why all my posts in Multiply, Livejournal, Facebook, Plurk and Twitter are usually for friends only. Unless I'm plugging something shamelessly.

I guess it started way back in high school wherein I was "blocked" from mIRC (old schooool!) because of my opinions. Bleh. It was a big deal back then. But the results are still evident up to this point.

But yes. I decided to make a life plan. And that it included me being able to stand up for my opinions. Hay. I'm always, always, ALWAYS afraid that I won't commit to the things that I'll say. Blahblahblah. And usually I just babble like this...blahblahblah.

So to launch this life plan, I've decided to open my private blog to everyone. I can't believe I'm actually doing this. It might be because of the alcohol (Yes. Sunday night rhum coke is heart.)

Hay. I can do this, right?:)

I am praying, praying, praying that I'd be able to get up and go to the gym today. I bought cool stuff from Nike in Podium. Hehe!:)