A Letter I Could Send

I have always had this "Letters I Could Never Send" part in my blogs wherein I send out anonymous letters to people and bahala na sila to guess kung para sa kanila ba yon o hindi. But this time, this letter I have sent. And this is the only way I could express what I feel. This is the "raw-est" of raw.:(

To You:

Tunay nga atang nararamdaman mo yung lungkot kapag mag-isa ka na lang sa gabi. Well, technically hating gabi. Haha! Hindi ko alam kung kelan mo ito mababasa pero sobrang hindi tumitigil yung luha ko ngayon. Akala ko matatakasan ko yung lungkot na nararamdaman ko sa pag-alis mo. Sobrang optimistic ako the whole day. I tried to be optimistic-sounding nung nakausap kita sa telepono kanina. Kasi akala ko kaya kong mapanindigan na sobrang saya ko talaga para sa iyo. Pero hindi ko pala kayang takasan. Ang sakit sakit sakit ng pag-alis mo. Hindi ko pinapakita sa iba, lalo na sayo, kasi ayaw kitang pigilan sa pag-alis mo. Kasi alam kong mas makakabuti sayo yon. Pero gusto ko lang malaman mo na sobrang sakit. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako umiiyak, di naman ako lasing. Hahahaha! Wala na akong makausap dito kasi tulog na lahat silang tinetext ko. I'm crying all by myself now. Baka kasi ayaw ko ring makita ng mga tao kasi ayaw kong makadagdag doon sa lungkot na nararamdaman ng lahat. Pero sobrang nalulungkot ako. Kahit lagi mo akong inaaway, lagi mo akong sinasaktan physically, kahit na lagi mo akong kinakanchawan kasi mahal ko si Dick at kahit lagi mo akong pinagtatawanan. I'd rather have that than feel what I'm feeling right now. Alam mo namang hindi ako ganun kagaling mag show ng emotions ko. Hahaha! Hindi ko nga rin alam kung nag me-make sense pa itong sinasabi ko. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na miss na miss na kita kahit kanina ka lang umalis. Hihintayin kita dito Sir Noel. Kahit na kung pagbalik mo hindi mo na ako maalala na may friend ka nga palang pangalan ay Virlynn (DRAMA! hahahaha!) Hindi kita malilimot kahit iyong limutin.:) (Yes, those are fake "hahaha-s" and fake smileys on this note) You'll be back soon! And when you're back, I hope that you'll be proud of whatever I have accomplished in my life in 2 years. Thank you for always believing that I can do things. Thank you thank you thank you. Magpakabait ka diyan!:D Huwag masyadong manlalalake ha!

Tunay ngang mararamdaman mo ang lungkot kapag mag-isa ka na lang sa gabi.

Why Can't You Take Me?

I first heard the song The Dance by Charlotte Martin in So You Think You Can Dance. I instantly fell in love with the song and the dance routine because it was very...Tim Burton-esque. Watch!:D

I took note of the song and placed it on my Stickies. Completely forgot about it! Well, not until today. I searched the song and lyrics...and I fell in love with it again. Here's the song and the lyrics:

Inside my mouth i can hear all the voices say 
do not lean over the ledge 
i shouldn't look down and i shouldn't have found 
that your lips i still taste in my head 
raising my glass to the head of the class 
as she powers out steps one through ten 
i think I'll be fine if I'm covered in wine 
nice to hate you and love you again 
and see you again 
and see you again 

weary and worn little monster is born 
tell me lies and I'll justify them 
desperate today and it's making me pay 
for that night for that kiss for your bed 
whoever dared to love someone out there 
i don't need a balloon and a pin 
the name of the game is outrunning the blame 
so i hate you and love you we're friends 
guess we'll be friends 
i guess we'll be friends 

oh why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me? 

better stop crying hello and goodbye-ing 
go on through me slip right through my hands 
you get your time and the other half's mine 
it's okay this love weighs fifty men 
it's okay this love weighs fifty men 
it's okay this love weighs fifty men 

oh why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me? 
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now? 
why can't you take me? 

amen 
amen 
amen 
amen

Hahaha! Emo mode? Hindi kasi dapat ako binanatan tungkol sa kaduwagan ko sa pag-ibig sa Mock Rehearsals kanina eh. Tsk tsk tsk. Hahahaha!

What I Have Been Up to?:)

Yes, I don't have any proper posts for the last few days. It's because things are really getting tough with the shows and all.:( I want a perfect run but I can't seem to get it. I buckled like hell during my last show. I hated that show.:( But ohwell. I'm still proud of the material. I am very thankful for the smart people who watched.:) You need brains to get the play.:D

Watch me if you still can!:D

My shows: Jan 21 (7pm), 22 (2pm), 28 (7pm), 30 (7pm)

Rizal Mini Theater, Ateneo de Manila University

Photo is by Kevin Tatco:)

According to the Mystic Medusa 2010 Horoscope...

My 2010 will be...

 SAGITTARIUS

Style: Gorgeous citizen of the world that you are, your signature style is ravingly eclectic. Yes, turquoise is your official and lucky stone but you’ll grab anything that takes your fancy and make it your own. The Sagg speciality is combining haute and low, to devastating effect. eg; faded old jeans with a diamond tennis bracelet. A long gown for dinner by the beach with sandy bare feet. You’re getting wealthier in 2010, all the better to manifest your unique vision.

Happiness: You are renowned for candour and this obviously does not make you the greatest corporate player in history. But this year you enjoy a far greater degree of basic smarts when it comes to biz and work situations. Use April to June for redefining your vocational stance and upskilling if appropriate. Sensational opportunities arrive in July; Be prepped. Any time from September is spectacular for a retreat or deeply personal journey of discovery.

Love: Late May through to mid-August is when the fun begins. Think: Sudden romance, lust at first sight and exciting trips undertaken in the name of love. From September, you are in a situation where your relationship life feels blended with spiritual pursuits. As your ruler, lucky Jove, is in the home sector, you’ve a huge chance of hooking up with a new love interest via your family or a childhood friend. It’s also a prime time for fertility and babies.

Okay! Sabi mo yan ah! Walang bawian! Bwahahahaha! I will sue you if nothing in here comes true. I swear! Hahaha!

Check out your horoscope too! http://galadarling.com/article/mystic-medusa-2010-horoscopes

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